So we talk about ourselves in hell to forget the love we never felt
“Cheers for spring; for life; for a growing soul.”
- Sylvia Plath, The Journals of Sylvia Plath
“You know damn well that sex isn’t ever enough for you. You want a brilliant mind that you can stimulate, but that you can also honestly look up to.”
- Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
“I may never be happy, but tonight I am content.”
- Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath
“Please don’t expect me to always be good and kind and loving. There are times when I will be cold and thoughtless and hard to understand.”
- Sylvia Plath
Clothes I'd really like to wear but I'm broke and don't know how to sew:
Thanks for your attention
ONE NIGHT STAN
A few nights ago there was a “work meeting” that ended in a night of chaos, your boss wanted to celebrate the recent success of his company, Bighit, and invited all its employees to a very expensive bar, free food and alcohol for everyone. That night you cleared your mind and decided to relax, you were the “new girl” so you still did not relate well with all of your coworkers, but that was the perfect occasion to get close to them, especially to your partner with whom you spent so much time in the music studio but with whom you almost didn’t speak, unless it was about work issues, he was a very quiet, cold, intimidating and perfectionist person, especially when it comes to his music, he was like a closed book, it was too hard to know what what he was thinking and very difficult to approach him.
But that night, that stupid night things would change for you and him.
A few hours after the dinner started, the room had split up, people started talking, drinking, laughing, the atmosphere had relaxed and people were having a good time, all except Yoongi, who was sitting at the bar alone and with a glass of whiskey in his hand, he seemed distant, thoughtful and not at all amused, while your seeing him in such a way, you felt the need to approach and talk to him; the nerves made you tremble because in a certain way you were afraid of him recharging your company with an intimidating and cold look.
You ordered a glass of wine to the bartender and he immediately served it in front of you, the nerves were stronger, you needed more alcohol; the music sounded at an acceptable volume, not so loud, not so low, you drank from your glass and from the corner of your eye you tried to observe Yoongi, but he was still with the same indifferent and distant expression and you were beginning to wonder if it was a good idea to talk to him when he didn’t even seem interested in talking to anyone.
“I see you’re having fun,” you said sarcastically, not really knowing how else to start a conversation with a person like him.
Yoongi didn’t turn around to see you or respond, several minutes passed and you started to feel like a fool, he was ignoring you and it was very obvious that he wasn’t interested in talking to you. For a moment you hated him, but then you sighed and just got up from the seat, you were not going to insist on being with someone who didn’t want your company. It was humiliating enough to have been ignored.
“This place is annoying and I hate noisy places” he finally answered when he noticed you were about to leave. A surprise reaction showed in your face and stopped you, you turned to see him when you heard his voice and he took a sip of his whiskey. You decided to sit down again.
“Then why are you here? Just go home” you replied as you drank again from the wine glass while playing with it waving it from side to side trying to hide your nerves.
"The boss forced me to be here, arguing that I need to relax because I overwork” Yoongi seemed annoyed to feel obligated to be in a place where he didn’t want to be, but as always he’s a person who appreciates his work, he really couldn’t disobey his superiors.
“I can’t disagree with that, Bang Pd is right” a half smile was drawn on your lips remembering the nights when Yoongi stayed in the studio even when everyone left.
He turned to look at you with a slightly surprised face, as if suddenly he had forgotten that you, better that anyone, knew his habits of working late. He could’t say more
You two started talking, the conversation was mostly about music and work issues, but it didn’t bother you, even if it was your day off because the way Yoongi expressed himself surprised you, he was very immersed in the topic that you could barely speak, apparently the alcohol had made him relax a little, and you realized that you had never observed his face so closely, his lips were pink and pretty and every time he spoke he pouted, his eyes were small but intimidating and his skin was white as snow, his hands were masculine and that black hair matching with his dark suit made him look even more attractive than you already knew he was; the talk followed and also the alcohol glasses came and went, Yoongi seemed to have a good resistance to alcohol, while you started to feel a little dizzy, it wasn’t a good idea to have mixed whiskey and wine.
“I have to go to the bathroom, I will be right back” you excused yourself and went to the bathroom, when you entered the place, locked the door and you looked at yourself in the mirror. The alcohol was working too son, you had drunk enough glasses of wine to know that at this point, it was when you began to disinhibit way too much. So it was enough, it was time to go home before doing something stupid and you could not afford to do something like that in front of your coworkers.
When you left the bathroom you walked to the bar right where you had been sitting with Yoongi a few minutes ago, but he wasn’t there, you took your things and looked for him but he did not seem to be anywhere, you wanted to say goodbye before leaving but you couldn’t find him, so you’d just go home. But for your luck, when leaving the bar, you saw a silhouette leaning on that wall, it was Yoongi, with a cigarette in his hand and the other in the pocket of his pants, your heart stopped abruptly, the light of the moon and the wind in that cool autumn night, made the fragrance of his perfume mingled with the smell of the cigarette sneaked into your breath. He looked unreal.
“I just went for a cigarette” Yoongi said when he noticed your presence.
You walked towards him with the intention of saying goodbye, but when standing in front of him, he made this gesture so typical of him, biting his lower lip and running his tongue through his red and kissable lips.
Now your body began to have those involuntary reactions like your heart drumming at full speed and biting your lips trying to resist the temptation. But too late for you, this physical attraction was too strong and you too weak.
“I was thinking of escaping this boring party and doing something more… fun” you said with the most provocative tone of voice, it’s not that you were always this bold, it’s just that alcohol had made you tremendously horny and the man that accompanied you was too tempting that you gave in to the slightest provocation.
Yoongi wasn’t stupid, he knew perfectly what you meant and your proposal had awakened something inside him. His expression changed, his eyes became dark and hooded, he press the inside of his cheek with his tongue and he look you up and down, scanning your body.
“Let’s go to my place” he replied as brief and direct as posible and the sound of his deep voice makes you shiver.
He walked first and you follow him from afar, with the intention of nobody could see that you left together since Bighit had forbidden romantic relationships between employees. Yoongi took some keys out of his pocket and got into a black sports car, but before he left the passenger door open for you, and you got into the car without saying a single word, but somehow you were surprised, you never thought he would have such a luxurious car; he was always the last to leave the building so you could never know the kind of car he drove. And let’s be honest, his car matches his personality, fierce but elegant.
You arrived at his apartment, a large, clean place and located in the best area of Seoul, on the top floor of the building.
You two came in, Yoongi asked you to make yourself comfortable, he offered a drink of whiskey that you accepted, it didn’t seem like he’s the kind of person who rushed things, and you started to feel nervous, it was ironic how you were so bold and now you felt helpless.You drank the whiskey in one gulp because wanted the alcohol to give you back the security you had a while ago outside the bar, but it only made you more tipsy, but still conscious.
Yoongi walked to his room and returned almost immediately, taking off his jacket and unbuttoning the first buttons of his shirt. He seemed calm, unlike you he seemed not to feel nervous or anxious. Your body was beginning to feel desperate for him to get closer to you but he kept walking around the apartment as if you weren’t there. So there was no choice, you stood up and walked to the kitchen where he was pouring another shot of whiskey.
“Do you really want to do this?” You asked almost like a whisper, you were beginning to believe that maybe Yoongi wasn’t so interested in you.
Yoongi looked at you, he leave his glass on the table and he take your waist cornering you against the wall; having removed your heels in the entrance, now you had to look at his face from above. He support his hand against the wall and he looked at you straight in the eyes, his eyes were so fierce that made you gulp.
“Aren’t you too drunk?” He asked in a deep, serious voice, “are you sure you will not regret this?” and that sounded more like a warning than an invitation
“Maybe, and No.” You answered his questions without looking away from those intense eyes, He was intimidating but even so you could not take your eyes off him.
Almost immediately upon hearing your words he smirk and kissed your lips, you had let down your guard for a second and that kiss took you by surprise, his lips felt like the sweetest drug you had ever tried, his arm encircled your waist and pulled your body against his, while his free hand slid up your leg to touch your butt underneath your dress. For a second he broke the kiss and his evil eyes looked at you with lust, he took your hand and intertwine his fingers with yours, just to guide you to his room, he closed the as preventing someone from entering, even knowing that you were alone, but you were wrong, it was not so that anyone could enter, but so that no one could leave the room. He would not let you escape once you agreed to play this game.
You sat on the edge of his bed, the sheets were shades of dark and gray, like the color of the walls, there was a lamp on, the light was dim, perfect to match the atmosphere, Yoongi was standing in front to you, unbuttoning the cuffs of his shirt and you started to feel too exposed, he approached and made you lie on the bed while kissing your lips in a rough way, he take your wrists with both hands and put them on above your head, leaving you immobilized, the temperature of your body rose so much that you could feel your skin burn, you couldn’t stop kissing his lips and he released one of your wrists just to slide his hand between your legs, making you moan.
The way Yoongi touched you couldn’t be described as rough or slow and romantic, he was more intense and dominant. Very dominant. He made you tremble just by looking at his fierce expression and his lustful eyes. You could feel how much he wanted you, and how much he was enjoying listening to you moan every time he touched your clit.
"Spread your legs” he demanded while kissing your neck and you obeyed immediately, he then slid both hands on your thighs and he take your underwear sliding it on your legs until it comes out completely and he throws it to the side of the bed.
You weren’t used to this, you had never been a submissive person, much less when it comes to sex, but with Yoongi you involuntarily acted to every request that came out of his mouth, you couldn’t help it, he was the one who was in command.
Each kiss, each caress, each glance, made you tremble with lust, he was unreal, so dominant, hot and above all, intimidating. He still had his clothes on, and even though Yoongi took off your panties, you still had your dress on. And every time he pressed his bulge against your body and you felt his erection, you could not wait to feel it inside. You were wanting too much, your body was screaming for Yoongi to be inside of you, and he knew it, but he enjoyed teasing you. So you decided to take control, it was your turn to undress him, you turned around and now he was lying on the bed, you sat on his lap and began to unbutton the rest of his shirt, exposing his chest and white skin, he seemed surprised of your dominant reaction but he liked it, you could notice it when you see one of the corners of his mouth rise and his pupils dilating when he sees the neckline of your dress.
“You like what you see?” You mocked and he smirks wickedly for a second.
You started kissing his lips again, he seemed more desperate now, he kissed you roughly, and you leaned to kiss his neck, that set him on fire. Without taking your lips off of his, you slid your hands to his crotch and you open the zipper of his pants and put your hand in under his underwear, as a reaction he squeezed your waist and took your wrists again, he moved your body and again you had finished under his body and tied hands, he was in control again. Apparently more horny than before.
Yoongi took the dress off you, your body was fully exposed, no underwear and no drees on, he looked you up and down admiring every inch of your skin.
“You look better this way” he whispered and began to kiss your neck until it came down to your breasts, without letting go of your wrists. He wanted to make sure you knew he was in charge.
Then Yoongi release your wrists, he took off his shirt completely, anyway his skin was already quite exposed, but now you could admire the length of his shoulders and the width of his back. He was so attractive that it seemed offensive to your sight.
He’s too hot to be real.
He didn’t take off his pants, he just put his hand inside his underwear and suddenly his erection came into view, it was hard and big, just seeing his bulge made your heart drumm like crazy and your clit burned. You had been craving for him to be inside you for a while and now suddenly you seemed helpless and nervous.
He spread your legs and he looked at you fiercely in the eyes.
“Wait” you whispered nervously.
“I can’t wait” he answered and made sure to put his erection into your femininity, filling every corner inside you, and making you moan louder than ever. You tightened your lips to avoid screaming again now that he was beginning to move.
“Don’t hold back, you can scream if you want, nobody can hear you… just me” he kissed your lips again and moved roughly inside of you, You couldn’t stop moaning and he kept squeezing your thighs as he entered and left you, fast and hard. Your skin burned and you felt like every moment the temperature was rising, the pink cheeks of Yoongi and his messy hair, the sweat sticking out of his neck, and the sound of his agitated breathing made you feel even more horny.
He made you feel that you burned with pleasure, the way he caressed your skin, when he licks your breasts, his lips on your neck and his way of dominating you completely, and feel his dick inside you moving rudely, you knew that you were about to reach the climax.
“You can’t finish yet, the night is just beginning” he pulled his dick out of you and smiled wickedly. You didn’t complain, you just bit your lip and put yourself on top of him, you kissed his neck, his chest and you went down to his stomach, you took his pants and slipped it to get rid of them, he was amused. You took his dick with one hand and gently put it in your mouth.
Yoongi closed his eyes and even though he wanted to let out a moan, he just tilted his head back and tensed his jaw trying to hold back. You continued to suck his dick a little faster without stopping looking at his expression. He was enjoying it.
“Fuck” he muttered “right there, babe” the sweat of his forehead slid down his neck, he looked fucking hot even from this angle.
You kept sucking, faster and more intensely, you enjoyed seeing his face and how his moans came involuntarily out of his mouth, he was so attractive no matter what he did.
He coulnt resist anymore and Yoongi put you on top of him again, Yoongi didn’t plan to cum in your mouth, he wanted to keep putting his dick inside you until you cum first, he asked you to ride him, and that’s what you did, Yoongi like that position so he could see you from a more pleasant angle, his dick inside you was even harder than before, he enjoyed the view, your breasts jumping every time you moved your hips, he was about to come but first he take you of the wrist again and put you under him, he returned to put his dick inside you, moving rudely, inside and hard, again and again, making you moan louder, he was too excited to see you and listen to your moans.
“You’re so tight, I don’t think I can resist any longer” he said, running his tongue over his lips, Yoongi looked so hot and fierce.
“Come inside me” you begged, and those words were enough to drive him crazy, he moved faster and stronger, you shouted and felt like you were about to reach the climax, more and more, as Yoongi didn’t stop poking and take out his dick, he was enjoying it as much as you, until you could not resist anymore and you let it out, and Yoongi did it too, both finished at the same time, you could feel his cum inside you. And he could feel your fluids around his member.
“Fuck, I came” he spoke as he tried to catch his breath. His rosy cheeks, the sweat of his chest and his wild hair, was the best sight.
“That was really good” you whispered weakly, you still felt your heart racing and that pleasant feeling in your clit.
Yoongi got up and went to the bathroom, washed his genitals and went back to bed with a towel for you.
The rest of the night you two continued talking, although it was not for long because you were so tired that you both ended up sleeping, you with your head on his arm and hiding your face on his chest. Yoongi wasn’t the type to snuggle after having sex with someone, but for the first time it didn’t bother him, he watched you sleep and then closed his eyes to rest.
Ps. Pls forgive my lack of spelling, my native language it’s not English so it’s very difficult for me to write fluently. If you like it pls let me know :) thank you for reading 💕
“I exist only for you,I’m yours” (https://twitter.com/chelzziie/status/1011888222052290566?s=21)
